SCREAM of a little girl

2 weeks isnt long

2009-09-12T14:44:00.000-07:00

Just want to say,
" HAPPY HOLIDAY! and happy advance raya. maaf zahir & batin. "

sorry for the lack of update. been lazy to log in blog lately. well, later ill be going to jerudong, my granny's house and sleepover there so I think there will be no updates for today onwards. will be busy doing this and that. HEHE [:

to know the truth is to be hurt

2009-09-10T05:04:00.001-07:00

Today sch was damn fun. emm for me yes :) history 1st 3 period, we were given back our history test paper. wow dude! for the first in my form 4 life, well exam, I passed both paper 1 & 2. belive me. HAHAHAHA! period 4 & 5, bm. doing nothing. just chatted with mates and cg G. hoho. 9.45am went to the hall. we had this sambutan nuzul al-quran. the teachers read the quran and after that us, the teachers & students read the surah-surah. short surah I mean. and after that, penyampaian derma anak-anak yatim. 12pm, sch day over. my mum pick me up at 12.30+ and went to gadong to pick my dad so I went home around 1. slept around 3. blablaa [:

ps : mly

alololo

2009-09-04T22:49:00.000-07:00

"I is MISSING you right now. DONT YA KNOW THAT?" apan. ada ada saja -.-'

cure cure

2009-09-04T22:40:00.000-07:00

2 papers to go and then Ill be freeeeeeeeee! macam burung lapas dari sangkar. apan. lame! so anyway, my teacher told me that I passed my combine sci. im glad eventhough my marks is low but whatever. as long as I passed :D

I had geo paper 2 this morning and it was (N) urghhh. I feel sick! Im not feeling well! and that makes me didnt think well. oh just shattap. past is past.

saturdaaaaay,

2009-08-29T23:33:00.000-07:00

yesterday, went to gadong with the mates. its been a while I guess I didnt went there. Had open fasting at ca. mohammad and we made a surprise birthday for suhaila. HAHA. kbox also with jim. teen sent me home around 9.20. overall, I had fun!

alololo

2009-08-24T22:20:00.001-07:00

today we were given back our short test paper math and I got 2/8 for matrices and 4/10 for limit of accuracy, standard form, estimate. lawakan? oh well. HAHAHAHA! and irk period, we were asked to read quran. yayerz! im so proud that im in alif category. HEHE. chayo baby! :D I read surah yg after surah yasin. dari ayat ke-16 until 51. bnyak? yes, i know but nvm :DD

2009-08-23T23:58:00.001-07:00

"oh tuhan berikanlah ku jawapan,
mengapa kini kami ditemukan,
sedangkan dia sudah berpunya,
dan bahagia disampingnya

mengapa ini harusnya terjadi,
walau cuma seketika begini,
luka dihati.. blablabla"

AKU SUKA LAGU ANI! but idk the title of the song :(

blablabla

2009-08-22T09:26:00.000-07:00

I am so down yesterday (22/8) like seriously because of jealousy which was meaningless? Jokes urang pun inda menjadi ani wah. oberrr. my life isnt that easy. I cant handle it alone by myself ): shit things happen every single day like wth? urgh mahn. emo ku. I cried! pffttt! okay thats me. shattap! uhh

Huh

2009-08-19T07:25:00.000-07:00

Had a maths short test this morning and the topic was on matrix. it was (N) blurgh! The good news is I begin to understand about the adjustment thingy. POAAAAA. duhhh. Havent finish karangan about the computer blablablaa. shiz man! im blank! About 150 words to be add. wth?

P/S: Jangan membanyakkan ketawa, kerana ketawa itu mematikan hati

what a lifeee.

2009-08-18T03:53:00.001-07:00

omg! 2nd monthly test is coming, SOOOOOON! and puasa too. yayerz! hahaha cant wait for puasa! :D our sitting arrangement changed! and know what? I sat blakang sekali! Like wth? barisan ke 5 waah ): inda ku concentrate niii. BANAAAR. oh whateverrr. HEHE. mmy baboon! wuuuw!

Before I forgot, yesterdaaay, I lost my phone! haha apakan. nadalaaah. It just thaat anti ku lupa yg ea ampai my phone arah my study table. and aku inda nampak. nyeeeeh. At first, aku susah hati (who doesnt?) then I said to my bro, "yay! mobile ku ilang. MAAAA, bali mobile baru." hahahaha then my bro said, "ihh, mobile mu bejalan tuu. transformer kaliaa" HAHAHA macam2 jua ihhh. then blablabla ngalih ku ngalih. hahaha

D'masiv - cinta sampai disini

2009-08-15T07:31:00.000-07:00

mencoba tuk pahami
mencari celah hatimu
bila harus menangis
aku kan menangis
namun air mata
ini telah habis
segalanya telah kuberikan
tapi kau tak pernah ada pengertian
mungkin kita harus jalani
cinta memang cukup sampai disini
mencoba tuk rasuki
menyentuh palung jiwamu
bila harus mengiba
aku kan mengiba
namun rasa ini telah
sampai di ujung lelahku
segalanya telah kuberikan
tapi kau tak pernah ada pengertian
mungkin kita harus jalani
cinta memang cukup sampai disini
aaaaa
segalanya telah kuberikan
tapi kau tak pernah ada pengertian
mungkin kita harus jalani
cinta memang cukup sampai disini

shittos!

2009-08-11T02:28:00.000-07:00

I dont feel like want to blog something so yeah, im out since ive got nothing to say. TTFN!

flaming

2009-08-06T01:44:00.001-07:00

why is that our friendship doesnt went well lately? DARNIT! I seriously dont know what to doooo! whos the one that change? you or us? I couldnt judge! Im so fucking annoy with the situation! you dont have to pretend to be my-so-called-good-friend if you didnt mean to be. Just go with your so-called-new-bestfriend! You dont need me actualy. Byebye for now. I care no more. SHATTAP!

L!

2009-08-05T02:57:00.000-07:00

okay, shattap! you were badmood because of us? US WAH DUDE!? whateverrrr! yeah, I know kami unfair rah kauu but thats ur own fault wah! antah kau eh. WHATEVER WHATEVER WHATEVER! dont wanna talk bout it! SEMUA SALAAAAAAAAH! I CANT STAND IT ANY LONGERRR! Blablabla!

Blablabla

2009-08-04T22:48:00.000-07:00

another sch work to be done this week! IM DEAD!

Okay, im off to bed!

Hiro Mizushima hot!

2009-08-04T07:00:00.000-07:00

today sch was okaay except for GEOGRAPHY. I was like blank tadi, AGAIN. Duhhhhh! Teach me! :// didnt sleep in the afternoon. Watched dvd's a7x concert live at LBC, agaaaain. haha

double di double da

2009-08-03T02:15:00.000-07:00

had a surprise party for peach 15th birthday, this morning. HAPPY 15TH PEACH! :D and aku sudaah siapkan all my sch works. well except for history. Tinggal 1 section lagiii :D

yeayerrr!

2009-08-02T00:19:00.000-07:00

I didnt sleep well lastnight and I dont know why. Today I woke up at 7.30am (: had oat for breakfast. 11am went out to serusop with qeen to buy something. I bought supernatural's season 4 epd 20-22. The old one rusaaak, thats y I buy the new one. Went to battle zone. Its a cyber actualy just for half an hour. And also we went to jollibee and I ordered cheese and beef.

at jollibee;
pelayan : buat feedback disini *giving us a book
kami : ahh? *BANGANG!*
pelayan : buat feedback
aku : ohh feedback. feedback wah qeen eh!

then the pelayan tinggalkan us.

qeen : apakan feedback ani?
*i dont remember apa yang ku cakap after that*

actualy, pendengaran kami awal2 laain. pendengaran ku the pelayan cakap 'buat beg' ! thats y ku bangang. TELINGA RYM TELINGA! hahahaha. Qeen lain lagi tu. antah, lupa ku apa ya pkir. apakan. haha.

Went home at 1pm. TIREEEED!

pissed me off!

2009-08-01T07:50:00.000-07:00

why is that credit masa ni skajap abis? it started from the past few weeks sudaah. BAIE! dulu inda cmani ni! Though I use operamini batah2, inda jua sampai 1 buck kali kurang. damnit! my credit before ani, probably 7 - 8, and now its only 6 dollar plus! faeces! why is thaat? WHAT HAPPEN? Uhhhh? using slick is wasting credit. BANAR. I just realised it when my bro asked me y everytime he use slick to go online, his credit bnyak bekurang. EH BANCIKU! bah ih. off to bed!

New blogskin!

2009-08-01T07:18:00.001-07:00

I just dont feel like want to blog something since everything that I do everyday is what we called that sameee. but since im bored right, so I go blogging.

Talking bout sch, I hate this so-called-wannabe! ahh damn you! look into the mirror, bitch! poser kau ah baie! darn it! FORGET BOUT IT!

okaay, sch waas kindaa umphh okaay. masa berlalu dengan cepat! apan. but seriously. study pun macamm idk. 1hour is like 30mins? duhhh :/ ahir balik todaay. my daddy pick me up at 1pm. my homeworks were left undone. apan haha planned to finish up all my homeworks but my lazy mode is activated. so I just left my homeworks atas meja.

Reminder ;
● history correction and classwork
● geography, rainfall diagram
● POA, balance sheet
● english, read and highlight key points

thats all, right?

simpleriloly

2009-07-30T19:56:00.000-07:00

lastnight had a dinner at big papas kiulap since yesteryday was my brother's birthday. after dinner, went around bandar but dalam krita ja caused my mum not feeling well. get well soon, moma! (:

youre my inspiration, bratha!

2009-07-29T22:12:00.000-07:00

“ HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, MUHAMMAD ABDUL RAHIM BIN HAJI ADANAN! ”
May Allah bless you. Happiness and longevity. Success in what you aim for especially those related to music. Last but not least, hope youll be together with syahirah soooonn. I know you both are meant to be together. Me as your lil sister will always be there for you. (:

short update

2009-07-28T06:00:00.000-07:00

What a tiring daaaay :/ balik dari sch, rehaat2 then around 2, makaan. 4.30, my mum pick my brother and I and we went shopping at pertama jaya. 2 hours shopping :s my brother drive us homeee, JANTUNGKU ALMOST GUGUR! Gila kaliiii. arrived at home, blablaa angkat barang then panyap2 and all. makan roti john then restingg. 7 plus pm jalan skajap with my brother, bali minyak kreta. went home around 8. had shower and finished my maths. now, just lying on bed. TIRED!

2 days to go

2009-07-28T00:30:00.000-07:00

LAZY TO UPDATE! Anyone want to update mine? HAHAHAHAHA! andddd, aku mau pinjam books! boring ku! uhh not sch books anyway. anyone? lent me books, please? nyeeeh.

what part of STFU dont you understand?

2009-07-27T07:12:00.001-07:00

I nearly scream when I saw my cat sitting near the door. I mean bilik tampat menyasah. Its located near the kitchen. Oh well, aku lagi jenisnya yang mudah tekajut. Tadi atu, aku memutung ketupat caused I wanna ate the satey and ketupat then I faced to the right, I saw my cat sitting, silent. HAHAHA! Then membuat hot chocolate. Sudah ku liat lagi, ilang tia. Takut ku! I thought atu just jelamaan. Rupanyaa, ea duduk didalam bilik menyasah atuu. Duh! When I opened the door kan suruh ea keluar, baruta te meow meow. =_____='

p/s : Im so pissed off when people took my things without asking permission especially when they took my things infront of me.

rymbow?

2009-07-27T06:54:00.001-07:00

I just finished reading 'private'. For the first time in my life, I read this kind of book. im more to DVDs than books, though. Oh well, my imagination is getting more better noww. HAHAHA :D

I wanna talk about sch now. First three period was BM and MIB. oh mahn, I just cant stand with cg G's jokes. HAHAHA. crazy maaaahn. ketawa sajaa haha :D then period 4 and 5 was geography. hmm, okay lah jua (Y). Then break, met up with Fatin and Nad skajap. Talked bout the silat tournament bla bla bla. Break with Teen, Gr, Qeen and Peej. Raii didnt break with us caused of some reasons. After break was english. Damn! My eyes nearly shut! I yawned for like 5 to 8 times. Hahaha. Last two period was maths. ohh whatsoever. 12.30pm - 2.15pm just fooling around. 2.15pm - 2.45pm, i guess, had geography extraclass. blabla went homeee.

Ive finished my homeworks. YEAY? daaaaaaa! haha

greetings

2009-07-27T06:36:00.000-07:00

Happy 17th birthday senior, Zureen Ariffin!
May Allah bless you. long and happy life. success in what you aim and dream. wish you a good luck in everything that you do :D IMY! wish we could meet again (:

Happy birthday, Nurnik Aidit!
May Allah bless you. long and happy life. success in what you aim and dream. wish you a good luck in everything that you do. HAVE A BLAAAST! :D

here and there

2009-07-25T00:51:00.000-07:00

today, school was kinda okaay. non-stop laughing especially break time. HAHAHAHA :D last period was geography and as usual, utak ku lagging kan paham cause I never like geography since elimentary school so IF my geography marks is unsatisfactory, just SHHHH! hahahaha! okaay. Im off to bed!
TTFN! (:

xo, you.

LOL!

2009-07-24T06:58:00.000-07:00

malam ani aku ketawa sajaa. pasal apaa? pasal abgku tampar pipi ku saja. oh well, bukan tampar as in kelaie. aku penyeluru sajaa yata garam atinyaa. HAHAHAHA :D ea lagi sakai2an makai ebuddy and slick. I said the words, "JANTA BANYAK TANYA!" like 10 times kali. hahaha. and tadi ea kinda mad pasaaaaal.. kan he used my ebuddy tadi so thats mean emailnya mixed with mine. theen, tadi aku keboringan so I changed my nick and automatically nicknya betukar jadi mcm mine punya nick. atu ya mentel. HAHAHAHA then aku downloaded kan slick arah his mobile. banyak complain bah abgku surang ani =_____=' ngalih melayan. hahahaha :DDD

ran-ran-random

2009-07-23T23:10:00.000-07:00

what if I cut my hair macam arah my photo ah? okay ka tu? HAHAHA actualy my hair panjang tu BUT aku kinda ikat rambutku kali that time yata usulnya macam pendek. lawaaaa (Y) but i dont want to cut my hair lagi. batah kan panjang ahh :D BUT aku macam mau gunting pendek juaa. APAKAN? HAHAHAHA nanti tah decide cause my mum keep on saying "panjang sudah rambutmu atuu" and I know, atu hint supaya I cut my hair. nant tah gunting ma. 'nant' okay :DD

I wanna buy dvd within temptation's concert yang album baru cause I watched concert yang lama like thousand times already. hahaha. oh well, Imma number one fan of within temptation! *like anyone care. and this is one of the reason why I wanna buy 1GB mmc so that I could put all the within temptation's song rah my mmc. WAHAHAHA :D

tralalala

2009-07-23T22:56:00.001-07:00

yesterday, the connection was (NNNNNN)! seriously. semua MSN ku inda mauu. even operamini. I was downloading song kemarin and langsung inda begarak. mcm.. ehh. lastlast, giveup. haha. so, patang while I was lying on my bed, there was this one monkey diluar window bilikku. subuk2. susah atiku ani wah! aku teimagine that monkey buka pintu window ku atuu and masuk lam bilikku. bukan inda panat! HAHAHAHA :D blablabla. then I watched dvd avenged sevenfold concert live at... idk. HAHAHA yataah since atu I FALL IN LOVE WITH M. SHADOW. eyaaaaa. HAHAHAHA :p then came my two brothers. abg maman suruh tukar cause ea kan liat power ranger SPD. wth? hahaha i know, kanakkanak. haha but who cares. me myself watched it juaa while eating ayamku. and abg maman was so hungry lastnight. ah! and I fell asleep around 9pm kali lastnight. my eyes inda mau dibuka like seriously. haha andd 12am kali, aku tebngun and try sign in. MAU! unfortunately, time ku text anak atuu MSNku disconnected. balik2 try sign in, inda mauu. last2, tidur tah ku balik. HAHAHA.

today bangun around 9am, kali. I saw shadow ambuk atu lagi arah my window (my window ttup with tabir) bising ani waah. majal bnaaar. HAHAHA :D blabla.. breakfast, ate martabak with susu manis. nyummm :9 had a shower around 1pm. HAHAHAHAHA :D

I remembered when I had this convo with abg rahim. we talked bout stuffs.

me : aku mau bali memory card 1GB eh
abg rahim : bali yang 2GB. 4GB kaah. then, tukar ma abg
me : ehh, betuahh. malasta ku ingau
abg rahim : HAHAHAHA

not to forget,
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO NUR ASYIKIN HAMZAH!
May Allah bless you.
IMY! kin. I know her since Im in primary one. First friend yang tagur aku. and aku one class with ea from primary one until six. BESTOLDFRIEND! and now ea sch at stpri ): wish we could jalan together this year with the others. and thankyou for your birthday greeting though my birthday batah sudaah :D ly, oldmate!

greetings

2009-07-22T22:32:00.000-07:00

23th July 2009,
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY KAKA QAYDEE!
May Allah bless youu. long and happy life. success in what you aim. reduce your ego and selfishness. and stop disturbing my bro! *pnutupnya lain tia, HAHAHAHA*

24th July 2009 - Asyikin Hamzah's birthday.
30th July 2009 - Rahim Adanan's birthday.
3rd August 2009 - Hafizah Harith's birthday.
7th August 2009 - Nurul Suhaimi's birthday.
8th August 2009 - Syarin Ibrahim's birthday.

*ani nganya yang ku ingat

brown haze, white vain

2009-07-22T22:25:00.001-07:00

today, I feel boredd like idk ah. lain laah. history test was... (N)! huhuhu aku bca sudah lastnight like balikbalik! s-to-o-pid! PE, test then played badminton. mcm nada feel tadi main ahh plus lupa stretching causing selahau tangan, for the second time. sigh.

NEWS YANG PALING KU INDA SUKA IS.. November ada silat tournament, again. DAMN! pfftttt! ngalih wah kan training everyday ahh! heh!

tomorrow, kaka Qay birthday!

2009-07-22T04:26:00.000-07:00

morning school was (Y)! eventhough aku sleepy time POA as always but i enjoyed belajar tadi. eyaa. sejak bilaaa. WAHAHAHAHA! :D noon, ada surprise party for fish. well sort of. then, combine sci extra class from 1.15 till 2.00pm. siukkkk!

ss501 - because Im stupid (eng ver.)

2009-07-21T05:37:00.001-07:00

Im really, very foolish
I know of no one other than you
youre looking at someone else
yet you have no idea of my feeling like this

I wont be in your days
I wont be in the memories either
however only you
I looked only at you
and the tears keep coming

as I watch you walking past
Im still happy
even yet you still dont know my heart
I should stop and go

I really want to see the day
Im withstanding the pain each day
"I love you" is playing on my lips
alone once again, crying for you
alone once again, missing for you
baby, I love you, Im waiting for you

I wont be in your days
I wont be remembered either
however only you
I looked only at you
Im making memories alone

loving you is like having a beautiful wound
I look at your pretty smile also
but I cannot laugh with you

Im thinking about you so much everyday
my heart is hurting in all these sad days
I want to see you is playing on my lips
alone once again, crying for you
alone once again, mirsing for you
baby, I love you, Im waiting for you

byebye, never say goodbye
eventhough I cannot hold you like this
I need you
I cannot say anything more
I want you
I keep on hoping too
Ill keep hoping

I really want to see the day
Im withstanding the pain each day
"I love you" is playing on my lips
alone once again, crying for you

Im thinking about you so much everyday
my heart is hurting in all these sad days
I want to see you is playing on my lips
alone once again, crying for you
alone once again, missing for you
baby, I love you, Im waiting for you

plenty of homeworks to be done

2009-07-20T01:00:00.000-07:00

Woke up EARLIER THAN USUAL. 6.30am! like daaaaaa! its holidaay BUT awal bangun =____='

currently at granny's place, Jerudong. ada family gathering. Bored like seriously bored! I watched boys over flower with my cousins. Too much interuption here. ngeh! with the existence of my annoying cousins and they were like "baaah, tukar transformer ehh!" balikbalik. and now Im watching TOTALLY SPIES. HAHAHAHAHA!

sometimes the person you want most, youre better off without

2009-07-18T01:12:00.001-07:00

So, there is this boy. and the way he laughs, makes me smile. and the way he talks, gives me butterflies. and just everything about him makes me happy (:

Ive found a person for me to change who I used to be, a season to start over new, and the reason is you. You just have the most adorable eyes I could ever fall for, the cutest smile that will take my breath away and the only guy that has the ability to make me laugh and smile widen. I wanna be the reason for the smile on your face. Just the thought of being with you tomorrow gives me strength to go on today. Without you, there is no music in my heart, no sunshine in my life and no joy in my soul. I can see the world through your eyes and you mean so much to me. It melts my heart everytime I think about you. Though I may not get to see you as often as I like, I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night but deep in my heart I truly know youre the one that I love. Youre so precious to me. I want to be your favourite hello, your hardest goodbye and the only hand you need to hold on to. My world was black and white, until the day you walked through my door and into my heart. I promise I will never forget the day we met, the sky may fall and the stars may too but in the end I will still love you. No matter where I am or what I am doing, when you come to mind, a smile comes to my face. I will always love you.

keep me warm

2009-07-17T07:24:00.001-07:00

longstoryshort,

starting to like david cook's song, light on. everytime I listen to it, I feel something different. Undescribeable feelings. anddddd Basshunter (Y) dance people! :DD

sleepyhead is awake!

2009-07-16T05:06:00.000-07:00

being solo for 5 months! andd loving you for a month. HAHAHAHA! plus 14 days to go for mr. hot 17th birthday. Wahahaha only certain people know who mr. hot is. right guys? :D

now, im chilling on the roof. emo ku skajap, liat staar but unfortunately moon nada. Wahahaha :DD

everyday is sunday

2009-07-15T22:53:00.001-07:00

I woke up this morning and im thankful that im still aliveeeeee! :D well, sch was kinda okaay. History, 1st two period. apakan? kinda SLEEPY. 3rd period was MIB but cg G didnt come to our class and me, rai, teen and gr were doing our combine sci homework. Word Equation and Balance Equation. We were sooooo kusutt doing the homework especialy teen. HAHAHAHA :p then break, FINAAAAALY! dapat break with peej and qeen :DD after break was IRK, buat latihan tafsir without refering to our textbook. me and rai doing good for the exercise (Y) last two period was geography. dont wanna talk about thaaat. then went homeeeee. I am soooo sleepy :/

lalalashittt

2009-07-15T05:28:00.000-07:00

my phone gugur tadi! shiiit! thankgawd inda kondem! haiyaaaaa 10 kali sudah gugur kali ehh =_____=' the one and only phone. mun rusak, apa kan dipakai? karing gigi. apaaaan bah adang rym. jauh ni karang. heh \/

today is WEDNESDAY!

2009-07-15T03:31:00.000-07:00

currently at Jerudong, my granny's place.

nini : ih mcm makin brisi muanyaa ani *looking at me
mama : awuuu, makan tia nganyaa :D

blablablablaa HAHAHAHA I knowww im getting fatter. hellooooo! who cares. payah diet waaaah! hahah :D

mama : ada cheek sudaah usulnya *looking at me
abg rahim : awu eh, dulu pipi nya straight

HAHAHAHA, ngek! and abg rahim, youre getting thinner! JANTAH DIET WAH! ilang chubbyy. HAHAHAHA whatsoevererrrr! :D

blaaaaaaah

2009-07-14T06:33:00.001-07:00

I decided to change my blogskin. I searched and I found the skin already. When I want to copy the code, I couldnt find the way to copy it. HAHA EGG! I have to use pc, baruta mau! :/

School was.. IDK. oh well, it was okay actualy but hist, kana bomb lagi i mean us. I know its our fault, never-put-an-effort to pass short test. My daddy pick me up at school around 1.10pm. heh ahiiiir.

Im soooooooooo sleepy todaaay. Dari pagi sampaaaaaai malam sleepy. CRAAAAAAZY! I fell asleep around 6pm and woke up 7 plus. I planned indakan tidur patang but then tetidur jua. Toink!

Currently, watching tv. eh no, tv is watching me. HAHAHAHAHAHA! apa kan diliat, mun the tv nada kluar papa. hey you old tv! when will ya get fix? apakan. I dont know what im talking abouuuttttt.

Recently, listening to the song

2009-07-13T23:48:00.000-07:00

The Lucky Laki - Bukan Superman

aku bukanlah superman
aku juga bisa nangis
jika kekasih hatiku
pergi meninggalkan aku

ayahku selalu berkata padaku
laki-laki tak boleh nangis
harus selalu kuat
harus selalu tangguh
harus bisa jadi tahan banting
tapi ternyata sakitnya cinta buat aku nangis

aku bukanlah superman
aku juga bisa nangis
jika kekasih hatiku
pergi meninggalkan aku

ayahku selalu memarahi aku
jika jatuh airmataku
kata ayah slalu
airmata itu
adalah tanda kelemahan
tapi ternyata airmataku
ternyata jatuh juga

aku bukanlah superman
aku juga bisa nangis
jika kekasih hatiku
pergi meninggalkan aku

ayahku tersayang
maafkanlah aku
jika aku masih menangis
masih belum bisa
menjadi seperti
apa yang ayah selalu mau
kita berjanji
tuk tidak lagi
menangis karna cinta

aku bukanlah superman
aku juga bisa nangis
jika kekasih hatiku
pergi meninggalkan aku

fyi, this band consist of 3 kids. all of them are ahmad dani's son and all of them are below 12years old. they act as the guitarist, drummer and the vocalist. idk about the keyboardist and bassist.

random

2009-07-13T06:55:00.001-07:00

My mum stood beside me and looked at the mirror. The fact is, im taller than my mum. HAHA. well, not so tall though :D even if she wear a slipper, still, im taller than her *proud. but who cares if you shorter than me :D iloveyou, ma. HAHAHA random

game freak!

2009-07-12T23:48:00.001-07:00

Abg Maman ada game guitar hero arah phone nya! I is jealous! :s Imma guitar hero freak! uh well kinda. since abg maman lend our ps2 controller to his friend like wth? he lend it without consulting with me and abg rahim? daaaaa! :@ who know where to download the game? tell me!

all the things I hate revolve around me

2009-07-12T00:04:00.000-07:00

" im lonely eventhough people are around me "

get what I mean? no? nevermind :D

crank that

2009-07-10T03:13:00.000-07:00

I read my older posts just now and I realised how emo I was for the past few weeks. HAHAHAHA! I seriously dont know how can I be that emo. The words just came out from my mind. I was just expressing my feelings though but now no more emo mode. Emo mode is deactivated!(sp?) WAHAHAHA. Life is too short to think for something useless. apakan? hahahaha

yellow card - lights and sounds

2009-07-09T23:28:00.001-07:00

hello you,
how was the rest?
you made it through
but never the less
i got you out of a wire
you be love and ill be a liar
tell it all and fill up the air
but make it loud cause nobody's there
stop, turn, take a look around
at all the lights and sounds
let em bring you in
slow, burn, let it all fade it out
and pull the curtains down
i wonder where youve been
make it new but stay in the lines
just let go
but keep it inside
smile big for everyone
even when you what theyve done
they gave you up the end but not where to start
not how to build, but to tear it apart
so tell it all and fill up the air
but make it out cause nobody's there

July 8

2009-07-07T23:52:00.000-07:00

we were suppose to have a photoshot today for the school magazine. silat cca actualy but it was posponed until tomorrow. we cant make it todaay cause of... MY FAULT. HAHAHA ngeh. had combine science extraclass from 1.15 - 2.00. just doing exercises. went home 2.10pm. kinda tired now *sigh

short story

2009-07-07T04:46:00.001-07:00

short post.

abg rahim : dek darah tinggi kah?
me : yeah
abg rahim : yata tu, makan daging saja
me : makan daging? haha, nda jua ku makan daging
abg rahim : haha, kau atu luan bnyak bepikir wah tu, stress, malar marah2
me : siapa yg buat aku marah ani? abg jua kaan
abg rahim : *smile* hahaha

am I that stress until I had a high blood pressure? whatthehell I am talking about here!?

cookie jar

2009-07-06T00:20:00.001-07:00

I need a cookie jar. not a jar for a cookie BUT a person that we called boyfriend. in second thought, I dont really need one. as what I told you, better be solo than double. too much pain.

PALE!?!

2009-07-05T06:39:00.001-07:00

simple update.

slept from 6.30 - 8.00pm. my alarm bebunyi 7.30pm, tebangun then stop my alarm then tidur balik. melayan mataaaaa. when I woke up, I see my face pale in the mirror. whatthehell? kusut g tu sulnya. antaaaaam :| tomorrow school! ready? hell no. hkay, i gtg

yaaaaaaawn

2009-07-05T03:06:00.001-07:00

i am so sleeeeepy right noww. yaaaaaawn. i slept around 3am and woke up around 9am. my baaaad? i knoww. okay, I better sleep. bubye (-|

urgh

2009-07-04T05:47:00.000-07:00

Is there any mobile that are waterproof? seriously, i wanna throw my phone into the pool!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fcuk!!!!

a e i o u

2009-07-03T06:22:00.001-07:00

I've been trying to steal your heart for such a long time but seems luck isnt on my side. I rebuild the love everytime it collapse. I try to retain though it hurts. My faithful on you starts to fading. Catch me before its too late. Everytime I close my eyes, I see you in my dreams. By the time I open my eyes, you've gone without words. My inner voice speak as my tears falling.

*to be continue

i miss everythinggggggg

2009-07-02T21:47:00.000-07:00

currently, I is missing :

● Belalong, KBFSC.
the river, hiking, sungai mata ikan, the foods, noises of the birds and us, everythingggggg! i wanna go there if i had one more chance.

● Pantai Muara with them
.
best memory ! though kinda boring cause of the existent(sp?) of that BFH. but still, we could laughed. i could see the happiness thru the faces.

● Pantai Serasa with family and cousins and Pantai Berakas with the cousins
.
seriously miss this moments. first time fishing BUT we caught nothing, aha. seeing my brother and cousins played football. the BBQ chicken :9

● Tanjung Aru, Kota Kinabalu
.
the beach was (Y) seriously. it would be romantic for a couple. my aunt once said "u&abg rahim looks like a couple. people who dont know u might think that u both are couple" cause we seriously look like a couple at that time. HAHAHAHA! and the food there were delicious! marvelous!

● my gaypartner
.
IMY na! I miss begila with you! I miss doing things together with you! I miss everythingggggg! HEHE.

● AZA
.
IMY my oldmate! we used to be close for the past few years but now ....... and he's my nephew for real ? idk. if its true, ill laugh out loud for sure. HAHA

● Zkn
.
IMY! cookiemonster of mine. my bestfriend at first but then lalala hahahahaha.
“ mahal kita maging sino kaman ” *idrk the spelling but i know how to pronounce it*

● 12th June 2009
.
miss the karaoke part and the time between 7.15pm until 8pm. HAHA only zkn know this. first met with him though it was not a 'sweet' date. it was not a date actualy. right? and, since that time..... HAHAHAHA

● 15th June 2009
.
MY BIRTHDAY! oh IMISSIT! thankful cause it was not like lastyear. and for the first time in my life, I talked to Zall. we never talk since elimentary sch. believe me? HAHAHAHAHA!

● hanging out with cousins.
such a long long time ago. when I was in primary sch. hanging out with cousins and uncle. cinema together. but now? .........

● hanging out with friends.
truely missing the moment when we hanging out together. we've been hanging out for 4 years now, i guess. since this swineflu thingy, we cant hangout together for such a longtime.

● tembird with BIG family.
had a cleaning campaign. FUUUUUUN! cleaned our granny's house at bokok. imagine, you were asked to cleaned an old house with the age of 60 plus. crazy? HAHAH. too much childhood history of my mum and uncles there. undescribeable feelings i had at that time.

● tembird with cousins, aunt&uncle.
for the last time I cut my hair! HAHAHAHA! had a very good time there. went to the zoo! and went around the tembird.

● Maria Farisha
.
my cute little tiny cousin. shes only 2 years old. forgive kaka for being rude to you, pasha. I once scream at you and you cried. sorryyyyyyy!

● silat tournament.
i miss to shoutttt! "Kidahhh! sapu! sapu!" ahhh, craaaaazy! the coldest hall that i ever knew. wth? HAHA! 'bismillahirrahmannirrahim PAAAAAAAP MASNAA!!!!!!!!!!!!' i forgot the other trademark. i seriously miss this moment.

forever my destiny

2009-07-02T04:41:00.001-07:00

Im addicted to a music genre called rock since I listened to a song called numb by Linkin Park. I was just 9 years old when I listened to it. Ive been listening to that song for million times? zillion I guess. The video clip was so.... (Y) with the sounds of piano which was played by Mike Shinoda. Im a fans of Mike Shinoda bytheway.

● numb
● breaking the habit
● crawling
● in the end
● somewhere I belong
● point of authority
● figure 0.9
● high voltage
● papercut
● what ive done
● bleed it out
● from the inside
● one step closer

and now Im still addicted to rock song but Im more to metal now.

extremely funny

2009-07-02T00:23:00.000-07:00

Qeen told me, she texted the wrong person lastnight. and i was laughing when I read your text. seriously qeen. HAHAHAHA. yata tuu, jahat kau lagi arah kuu. "rym flu" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! :pp apa rasanya yo? orange? :D

aint funny but funny

2009-07-01T10:09:00.001-07:00

lastnight story.

Abg rahim brought Amanda into my room blablabla the vase gugur and pacah because of Amanda! and im pissed of. aku marahkan si Manda (crazy, talking to cat) then ea duduk with her guilty face. diam lagi tu. HAHAHAHA crazy! abg rahim said like this, "yata tuu, jgn beulah. kna mrh tia pulng nah" hahahahaha!

whatever!

2009-07-01T01:38:00.000-07:00

NO GOING OUT? WHAAAAAAAAAAA!? IM DEAD! ://

its just the way i use to be

2009-06-30T08:58:00.001-07:00

the sorrow overcome my happines. i couldnt find happiness here while the sadness keeps on chasing me. i just couldnt control myself from trying not to burst out the tears. my sensitiveness keeps on raising day by day. i wish upon the stars, hoping that my life will change one day. i know i better stop hoping and just face the fact that my life will end up with sorrow. i just dont need any of your sympathy.

“ life without taking risk is useless and everything happens with reasons ”

within temptation - forgiven

2009-06-30T05:46:00.001-07:00

couldnt save you from the start,
love you so it hurts my soul,
can you forgive me for trying again?
you silence makes me hold my breath,
all the time has passed you by,
for so long, ive tried to shield you from the world,
you couldnt face the freedom on your own,
here i am,
left in silence,
you gave up the fight,
you left me behind,
all that stands forgiven,
youll always be mine,
i know deep inside,
all that stands forgiven,
watched the clouds drifting away,
still the sun cant warm my face,
i know it was destined to go away,
you were looking for the great escape,
to chase your demons away,
ive been so lost since youve gone,
why not me before you?
why did fate deceive me?
everything turned out so wrong,
why did you leave me in silence?

information

2009-06-30T01:04:00.001-07:00

i found that sport science is interesting BUT too much maths. HAHA :D maths is our everyday life. 'Numb3r' a series movie. they solve the cases using maths? i went crazy when i saw the maths formula. ALGEBRA! oh gosh!

info :
pig's heart is SO similar to human's heart. find it out.

hell-ohh

2009-06-29T23:55:00.001-07:00

“ dek inda ke mall ? *laugh ”
okay, what kind of question is that !? HA-HA , I know laah I rarely go to the mall like puhleees Im so not social. oh boo you!

edited

2009-06-28T08:10:00.000-07:00

i just knew that he's GAAAAAY!? Adam Lambart is GAY? HAHAHAHAHA! oh well, sort of :D love boys&girls. what do we call that person? bi ? haha

quote

2009-06-28T07:47:00.001-07:00

“ When you make a failure it is because you have not asked for enough. keep on, and a larger thing than you were seeking will certainly come to you ”

i took this quote from my daddy's book. the book is kinda interesting but i didnt get a chance to read it. HEHE :D

new nickname

2009-06-28T07:23:00.001-07:00

my brother suggest me to change my nickname to INA instead of RYM cause he said that RYM is a boy name so blablabla. well, i kinda like this name so yeah. but i dont feel comfort if my mates calling me ina . Wahahaha. and he said, "banyak tu laki2 suka" eh wth you bro. HAHAHAHAHA. thanks anyway for the suggestion :DD

L

2009-06-28T03:44:00.000-07:00

mum : siuk cuti ?
me : buring.
mum : if skulah ?
me : buring juaa.

HAHAHAHA! apan. Lame!

missing piece inside of me

2009-06-25T01:57:00.000-07:00

He's
Just
Everywhere !

Am I Missing Him ?
- yes ? no ? yes ? no?

................................
................................
................................

I am so missing you right now.

There's no one else since I found you. It brings out the worst in me when youre not around. I miss the sound of your voice. You make me feel so alive. Now I know everything will be ok.

memories

2009-06-25T01:04:00.000-07:00

in this world you tried,
not leaving me alone behind,
theres no other way,
ill pray to the god,
let him stay,
the memories ease the pain inside,
now i know why,
all of my memories,
keep you near,
in silent moments,
imagine you here,
all of my memories,
keep you near,
your silent whispers, my silent tears,
made me promise id try,
to find my way back in this life,
i hope there is a way,
to give me a sign youre okay,
remind me again,
its worth it all,
so i can go on,
together in all these memories,
i see your smile,
all the memories i hold dear,
darling you know i love you till the end of time,
all of my memories,
keep you near,
in silent moments,
imagine you here,
all of my memories,
keep you near,
your silent whispers,
my silent tears,
all of my memories

angels

2009-06-25T00:59:00.001-07:00

sparkling angel,
i believe,
you are my sorrow,
in my time of need,
blinded by faith,
i couldnt hear,
all the whispers,
the warnings so clear,
i see the angel,
i lead them to your door,
theres no escape now,
no mercy no more,
now remorse cause i still remember,
the smile when you tore me apart,
you took my heart,
deceived me right from the start,
you show me dreams,
i wished they turn into real,
you broke your promise,
and made me realize,
it was all just a lie,
sparkling angel,
i couldnt see,
your dark intentions,
your feelings for me,
fallen angel,
tell me why,
what is the reason?
the thorn in your eye,
i see the angels,
ill lead them to your door,
theres no escape now,
no mercy no more,
now remorse cause i still remember,
the smile when you tore me apart,
you took my heart,
deceived me right from the start,
you show me dreams,
i wished they turn into real,
you broke your promise,
and made me realize,
it was all just a lie,
could have been forever,
now we have reached the end,
this world may have failed you,
it doesnt give the reason why,
you could have chosen,
a different path in life,
the smile when you tore me apart

tears of joy

2009-06-24T22:48:00.000-07:00

you leave me heartless. i just keep moving on without knowing that ill fall for you someday. 2 years has passed, we're just getting closer and closer and now we named our friendship with the title bestfriends. until the day we met, my love for you are build. it grows even deeper day by day. i cant keep it any longer so there we go, a confession night. since that day, happy feelings couldnt end knowing the fact that you feel the same way as mine.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

so what

2009-06-24T09:25:00.001-07:00

i had a late dinner this evening with my bro. cmana jua inda ahir, bcrita lagi kami before atu. HAHAHAHA. so, we ate maggie kari, chips, beef burger andd cheese finger. loads? oh well. kami starved waah! who cares! HAHAHAHA! and yeah, today two times headache! first, bkas afternoon sleep and second, tehantuk rah almari ! aku tehantuk, abgku tekajut. if y'guys see his expression. funny ! ktawa ku meliat. Hahaha. then we watched supernatural dvd. stuck, AGAIN! we ignored sja. well busy with phones. hahaha. sekali, mengajut tia dari awal. and kami mcm SHOCKED! abg rahim capi ! pacah lah kami tadi hahahahaha (Y) :D

cant make it

2009-06-23T21:45:00.000-07:00

i cant make it today. cant go to the mall to watch transformer 2 cause of no transport! hampa ku hampa! its okay anyway cause my brothers also cant watch transformer 2 cause its fully-booked! noon until midnight full! but i really wanna watch it today cause its premier!? HAHAHAHA! enough enough! and nowww im just laying on my bed doing this typing thingy blablabla

boreedd

2009-06-23T09:29:00.001-07:00

humphh im kinda bored here. is there anything that can entertain me? well right now? as usual, just laying on my bed, online msn with him in the middle of the night. and now my stomach starts to.. urgh! get hurt again and again :/

LG!

2009-06-23T07:33:00.001-07:00

i really craving for that LG phone! seriously! i couldnt buy it this or next month. reason? only one. im BROKE! uhhhh!

"baaaaangg! can i borrow your girlfriend's LG?" hahahaha, i am so not gonna say like thaat. well, hoping i can BUT im not that so brave, dudeee! buy me one ehhh, since i dont have any present on my birthday. anyone? *mimpi daaaang! :D

woaa

2009-06-23T02:04:00.001-07:00

oh i just knew that abg rahim's bestfriend, ainul, sudah balik lastnight. back to his home. and aku inda tau papa. HAHAHA! imisshim already. his jokes, his smile. hahaha he's hot! wooo~ dont be jealous :P sleepover sini again, yeaa? HAHAHAHA! :PP okay, stay hot dude! \m/

better late than never

2009-06-23T00:36:00.001-07:00

i just had my shower/i had my shower just now.(ohh, im so poor in english!) i know 'girl are not suppose to have a late shower' but who cares. its holiday, dude. HOLIDAY! hahaha :D

btw, i had this conversation with abang rahim tadi.
him : *tried to pull my hand*
me : apaan?
him : skajaap. pause dulu tu
(he thought i was listening to my mp3)
me : inda jua ku mendangar ne =_=
him : eh? sudaah :D
me : ah napaa?
him : anuu, bulan 8 pai bulan 6 brapa bulan kan tu?
me : ah?
him : bulan 8 taun lapas smpai bulan 6 ani
me : emm.. *thinking*
him : 10 or 11?
me : 10
him : ukannya 11 kaan? *counting* nah 11 jua tuu
me : eh, jangan kira dari 8..
him : haha handal maths kaliaa
me : hahahaha

Elmo song!

2009-06-22T22:55:00.001-07:00

currently, im listening to elmo song and i laugh. HAHAHA! elmo's voice is just so cutee. here's the lyric.

This is the song,
la la la la,
elmo's song,
la la la la,
la la la la,
elmo's song,
la la la,
la la la la, la,
la la la,
la la la la, la,
he loves to sing,
la la la la,
elmo's song,
la la la la
la la la la
elmo's song,
he wrote the music,
he wrote the words,
that's elmo's song.
This is the song,
la la la la,
big bird's song,
la la la la,
la la la la,
big bird's song,
la la la,
la la la la, la,
la la la,
la la la la, la,
i love to sing,
la la la la,
big bird's song,
la la la la
la la la la
big bird's song,
i love the music,
i love the words,
that's big bird's song.
This is the song,
la la la la,
snuffy's song,
la la la la,
la la la la,
snuffy's song,
la la la,
la la la la, la,
la la la,
la la la la, la,
i love to sing,
la la la la,
snuffy's song,
la la la la
la la la la
snuffy's song,
he wrote the music,
we wrote the words,
that's snuffy's,
that's big birds,
that's elmo's song!
Oh, yeah!

missing you

2009-06-22T08:14:00.001-07:00

everytime i think of you,
i always catch my breath,
im still standing here,
and your miles away,
and i wonder why you left me,
and theres a storm thats raging,
through my frozen heart tonight,
i hear your name in certain circles,
and it always makes me smile,
i spent my time just thinking about you,
and its almost driving me wild,
but its my heart thats beggin down this long distance line tonight,
and i aint missing you at all,
since youre been gone away,
i aint missing you,
no matter what i might say,
theres a message in the wires,
and i am sending you a signal tonight,
you dont know how desperate ive become,
and it looks like im loosen this fight, but its my heart thats breaking down this long dusty road on mine,
but i aint missing you at all,
since youre been gone away,
i aint missing you at all,
no matter what my friend say,
and theres a message that im sending out,
like a telegraph to you or something,
i cant bridge this distance,
honey, stop this heartache all alone.

boriiiingggg

2009-06-21T23:32:00.001-07:00

i decided to go jalan this wednesday with teen but then i changed my mind. 2 cases about the H1N1 in Brunei itself and it scares me. HAHAHAHA! plus no one will send me to Gadong, i guess. and and no money no jalan. but i really wanna go out for fresh air since i dont know what to do here. its very boring just laying on bed, doing nothing. hah!

remind

2009-06-21T22:44:00.001-07:00

my sickness reminds me of something. the time where my brother mad at me because i didnt tell him that i hurt my leg. i remember when he said,
"napa kau inda gtau abg yg kaki mu sakit? cubata if sakit kaki atu gtau. ani, dimalam mcm nadapapa usulnya"
i was non-stop cryinggg. HAHAHAHA! and yeah, until now i can feel the pain. sometimes, its hard for me to move my leg. oh poor me :/

well, keeping secrets and pretending okay is just me. sooo, dont be mad. *wink

PALE!

2009-06-21T06:55:00.001-07:00

tadi my brother said,
"pucat jua bibirmu atu"
and i looked at the mirror.
i really do looked like a sick girl tadi. PALE DUDE! HAHAHAHA! plus i wore my brother's jacket tadi just to covered my pyjamas because we go jalan tadi yataa i looked like a sick girl tadi. WAHAHAHAHA! but now, my face looks okay already, i guess. HEHE!

dream

2009-06-21T04:23:00.001-07:00

just wanna share bout my dream this morning. it was funny because i never dream of this boy. HAHAHA. wanna know who? have a guess. ;D

.... ..... .....

.... ......

....

still dont get who? okay, let me tell who. it starts with letter Z and ends with letter K. dear close friends, y'all know who, right? dont tell me you dont know. HAHAHAHA!

boring

2009-06-21T02:17:00.001-07:00

my shoulder (sp?) is kinda hurt. im not feeling very well. sch is getting closer. yeay! NOT! i havent done my homeworks. like wow :s lazy! lazy! lazy! tv, food, music, sleep? mahn, so boring! i want to go out from this house but what can i do? nothing! waaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

thankful

2009-06-20T23:49:00.000-07:00

eh i can see an improvement with my english speaking. big improvement. wow! happy me :D and loads of thanks to my dictionary and thesaurus (sp?) HAHAHAHAH! sounds crazy but hey who cares. as long as im happy with it :DD

Story

2009-06-20T23:40:00.001-07:00

good news. i make up my mind not to wait for you :D im moving forward and will just go with the flow. whatever happen just happen. i know there's a line boundary between you and me. and for the time being, we're just gonna be friends that'll love each other. am i right? :DD

eh and guess what? my hair is now no longer short! YEAY! it use to be long, long time ago but i cut it for some times. HAHAHAHA!

humphh. its been for such long time we havent visit our grandma at Jerudong. i dont know why my ma trying to avoid us everytime we ask to go to my grandma's place

hoo, pity Amanda. it have to stay inside my house for now because of unbelieveable reason? i can say. HAHAHAHA! wanna know why? Amanda was kinda being rapped by 3 cats. that was what my brother told me. PHOBIA, is the right word to say. Hahahaha. fyi, Amanda is a cat :D

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY

2009-06-20T10:31:00.000-07:00

i just knew that today is father's day. so..

“ Happy Father's Day to my dad, Hj Adanan Ahad. i know all of this time, im not being a good daughter for you but i just want you to know that i will always love you no matter what ”

love story

2009-06-20T10:11:00.001-07:00

we were both young when i first saw you,
i close my eyes,
and the flash back starts,
im standing there,
on a balcony in summer air,
see the lights,
see the party,
the ball gowns,
i see you make your way through the crowd,
and say hello,
little did i know,
that you were romeo,
you were throwing pebbles,
and my daddy said stay away from juliet,
and i was crying on the staircase, begging you please dont go,
and i said,
romeo take me somewhere we can be alone,
ill be waiting all there's left to do is run,
youll be the prince and ill be the princess,
its a love story baby just say yes,
so i sneak out to the garden to see you,
we keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew,
so close your eyes,
escape this town for a little while, cause your were romeo,
i was a scarlet letter,
and my daddy said stay away from juliet,
but you were everything to me,
i was begging you please dont go and i said,
romeo take me somewhere we can be alone,
ill be waiting all there's left to do is run,
youll be the prince and ill be the princess,
its a love story baby just say yes,
romeo save me,
they try to tell me how to feel,
this love is difficult,
but its real,
dont be afraid,
we'll make it out of this mess,
its a love story baby just say yes,
oh oh,
i got tired of waiting,
wondering if you were coming around,
my faith in you is fading,
when i met you on the outskirts of town,
and i said,
romeo save me ive been feeling so alone,
i keep waiting for you but you never come,
is this in my head?
i dont know what to think,
he knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring,
and said,
marry me juliet,
youll never have to be alone,
i love you and thats all i really know,
i talked to your dad,
go pick out a white dress,
its a love story baby just say yes,
oh, oh, oh, oh,
cause we were both young when i first saw you

emoooo!

2009-06-20T09:38:00.001-07:00

this is just the way i use to be. falling in to the wrong person. hoping he'll be mine which takes forever. trying to escape the fate that im falling for you

i put my trust on you but i guess its just a waste of time. im not strong enough to face it. i keep on hoping but i know its just a forlorn hope.

hold on tight cause i know in the end we'll be together. hold my hand and please dont let it go.

dont push me to hate you cause itll never happen. for sure ill be waiting for you.

all my life

2009-06-20T06:48:00.001-07:00

i will never find another lover,
sweeter than you,
sweeter than you,
and i will never find another lover, more precious than you,
more precious than you,
girl you are,
close to me youre like my mother, close to me youre like my father,
close to me youre like my sister,
close to me youre like my brother, you are the only one,
youre my everything,
and for you this song i sing,
all my life,
i prayed for someone like you,
and i thank god that i finally found you,
all my life,
i prayed for someone like you,
and i hope that you,
feels the same way too,
yes, i pray that you do love me too,
i said, youre all that im thinking of, baby,
said i promise to never,
fall in love with a stranger,
youre all im thinking of,
i praise the lord above,
for sending me your love,
i cherish every hug,
i really love you,
youre all that i ever know,
when you smile on my face,
all i see is a glow,
you turn my life around,
you picked me up when i was down,
youre all that i ever know,
when you smile my face glow,
and i hope that you,
feel the same way too,
yes i pray that you,
do love me too

jason mraz - lucky

2009-06-20T05:58:00.001-07:00

do u hear me ? im talking to u,
across the water across the deep blue ocean,
under the open sky,
oh my, baby im trying,
boy i hear u in my dreams,
i feel ur whisper across the sea,
i keep u with me in my heart,
u make it easier when life gets hard, lucky im in love with my bestfriend, lucky to have been where i have been, lucky to becoming home again,
ooh ooh ooh,
they dont know how long it takes, waiting for a love like this,
everytime we say goodbye,
i wish we had one more kiss,
ill wait for u i promise u, i will,
lucky im in love with my bestfriend, lucky to have been where i have been, lucky to be coming home again,
lucky we're in love in every way,
lucky to have stayed where we have stayed,
lucky to be coming home again,
and so im sailing through the sea,
to an island where we'll meet,
ull hear the music fill the air,
ill put a flower in ur hair,
through the breezes through trees, move so pretty ure all i see,
as the world keeps spinning round,
u hold me right here, right now,
lucky im in love with my bestfriend, lucky to have been where i have been, lucky to be coming home again,
lucky we're in love in every way,
lucky to have stayed where we have stayed,
lucky to be coming home someday, ooh ooh ooh,
ooh ooh ooh

Staind - so far away

2009-06-20T05:28:00.001-07:00

this is my life,
its not what it was before,
all these feeling ive shared,
and these are my dreams,
that i'd never live before,
cause i, i must be sleeping,
now that we're here,
its so far away,
all the struggle we thought was in vain,
all the mistakes,
one life contained,
they all finally start to go away,
now that we're here its so far away,
and i feel like i can face that day,
i can forgive and im not ashamed to be the person that i am today,
these are my words,
that ive never said before,
i think im doing ok,
and this is the smile,
that ive never shown before, somebody shake me,
cause i, i must be sleeping,
im so afraid of waking,
please dont shake me,
afraid of waking,
please dont shake me.

Funny

2009-06-20T04:48:00.001-07:00

“ R : Awu eh. mlsta me mikirkan. professor pun gundul tu ulihnya. HAHAHAHA! ”

&

“ G : ada satu example.urg yg bisai pun jadi gila tarus mikirkan;p ”

i findd it funny, HAHAHAHA! LOL :DD

tiring

2009-06-20T03:21:00.000-07:00

today, i woke up at 10 plus. syiqin pick me up around 2 and we went to anggrek desa swimming pool. believe it or not, i havent been there for ages. HAHAHA! then went home around 5.30. and now im tired! :s

crap

2009-06-19T09:11:00.000-07:00

my favourite words ,

“ will you be the saviour of the broken? ”

dont copy my words, will you?

EMO!

2009-06-19T08:48:00.001-07:00

my day was just full of loneliness. i cant feel your lav. i have to face it. face the fact that im just goin to be alone without you. i can feel the pain. going through my fearness alone without knowing what to think and what to do. my feelings for you is gettin deeper and deeper. i know i wont make it. i open up my eyes and now i know youre not the one for me

SMILE!

2009-06-19T07:17:00.001-07:00

woah :0 i dont believe what i just said, seriously. confession night? ashamed on me! but he adjwad me!? hkay , HAHAHAHA! i dont believe it! can you believe that? crazy me, hahahahaha. but i told him 'pretend that i never tell you this kind of thing' and he said 'its up to u :)' eyaa. HAHAHAHA!

i adjwam you. you know who you are so ssshhh! HAHAHA!

mmy , cookiemonster.

sick

2009-06-19T00:21:00.001-07:00

today, i feel sick. diarrhea, AGAIN! wth is happenin to me ???? :/

mmy, cookie monster. ://